Mother’s Day – May 8, 2011

 Making the decision to have a child is momentous.  It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.  – Elizabeth Stone
When I was growing up, I thought I would get married young and have a lot of kids.  I came from a big family, three brothers and one sister, lots of cousins, grandparents we saw often, lots of love and fun.  I wanted the same.   Well, life doesn’t always turn out as you plan.  

One amazing son

So, here I am, a single mom of one amazing child.  I could go on and on with all the sayings, devotionals and theories about why life is what it is and ponder that God only gives you what you can handle and wonder what my purpose is and what this journey is all about.  And believe me, I ponder all of that all the time right now.  I do know that being a mom is the single most important thing that I do and the one thing that I want to do more than anything else.  So, I throw my hands in the air and say “c’est la vie” and try to live in the moment the best I can and find the true joy.  That is when I really experience the honesty and sense of wonder of my son, his hilarious sense of humor, his seemingly tough outer shell which hides his sensitive nature, how physically tall and strong he has become when he tackles me in soccer (yes, soccer) and we enjoy our day together.  And we watch the clouds.  It’s hard with all the stresses of our situation and the obligations of the daily grind to turn my brain off and just have fun.  But I gotta do it!  And kids have to be kids and not bear the burden of stress and pressure to perform and keep busy and study all the time.  It’s good for all of us.  I’m raising him the best I can and I want him to be happy, that’s the main thing my parents want for me and my brothers and sister.

Clouds ~ by Sandy (my Mom):   

When I quit work about 10 yrs ago, I noticed the newer neighborhood kids were not playing outside like my kids always did.  I knew where the kids lived and I saw them being driven several time a day, somewhere by their mothers.  Then my daughter Leslie told me about her friends’ kids being involved in so many activities, several days a week.

I wondered what happened to letting a kid just do nothing.  I wondered why they just didn’t lie on their backs in the grass and watch the clouds go by, imagining what the clouds looked like ~ faces, animals, beautiful shapes.  I still watch the clouds and imagine.  I worry about these kids and whether they have learned to enjoy the simple life.

I thank my Mommy for teaching me that life is something to marvel at and to enjoy.  She taught me the right balance of doing the chores and enjoying the day.  She helped raise five great kids who are amazing adults that I love and respect.  As kids, we played outside from morning till night and ran and rode our bikes crazy throughout the neighborhood.  What a life!  I want my son to feel the same way about his life growing up.  JOY!!

Me, Jack and my Mom, 2006

Happy Mother’s Day to everyone.